Happy Due Date to Me!

"Little Girls Make the World Sweeter"

I found out I was pregnant on October 26, 2013.  It was early on a Saturday morning, right before I left to meet my friend for the Susan G. Komen Breast Cancer Walk.  My period was a few days late and I figured, "Why not?"  The next few minutes happened to be the longest of my life.  Should I look?  Should I wait till I get back from the walk?  What if it is positive?  What if it's negative?  Heart racing, mind racing, I decided to take a peek, and my life was changed forever. 

Originally, I had planned to share the news with Felipe in this elaborate "pinterest" way.  However, who was I kidding?  There was absolutely no way I could keep this secret for longer than a minute.  The first thing that came out of my mouth was, "Babe, babe, oh my God".  Of course the poor man woke up scared out of his mind.  I ran to the bed and just blurted out, "Babe, I took a pregnancy test, and I am pregnant".  We just sat there staring at each other completely dumbfounded.  It is true what they say, the moment in which you find out you are expecting a child is incredibly surreal.  We both had one of those cheesy smiles plastered across our faces.  WE ARE GOING TO HAVE A BABY!  

So, ever since that day in October, I have been counting down the days till July 1, 2014.  At first it was months, then it was weeks, then days, and now here we are.  My feelings are all over the place.  They are difficult to put into words.  Anxious.  Nervous. Excited.  A part of me knew deep down inside that she wouldn't come before her due date (A momma can dream, right?).  She was always meant to be a July baby.  Keeping my mind busy, so that I don't think of when it will happen, is getting increasingly difficult.  

Realizing that my little love will come on her time and not on my time, well, that is easier said than done.  So, I wait.  I'll wait, and wait, and wait.  Because I know, that the first time I lay eyes on my little girl, all the waiting will seem insignificant.  My heart feels like it may burst; what is going to happen when I hold her for the first time, my heart may actually, physically combust.  Sweet baby, momma will wait, however, if you decide to still come today, well that is just fine with me.

xx