I am throwin' it back, and?

Be Happy.  Be Bright.  Be You.

Yes, I am going there.  Actually, I just went there.  It is #throwbackthursday around these parts.  Look at that skinny minnie.  Who is that girl?  I barely recognize her.  That girl, goodness, she had no idea what was awaiting her.  That girl was clueless.  Then again, we are all clueless at fifteen, aren't we?  At fifteen we walk around as though we own the world.  At fifteen we think we know exactly what we are doing.  At fifteen any advice is too much advice, and we are adamant about the fact that no one understands.  We are invincible.

Every so often I wonder what I would have done differently if I were given the chance.  What would I do if I were given a second chance at being fifteen.  Would I change anything?  Would I have made different choices?  And, every single time the answer is the same:  I don't know.  Yes, 'I don't know' is a perfectly legitimate answer.  Of course there are moments I wish I could take back.  The heartbreak, the tears, the pain I think I would have been okay without them.  Yet, I am afraid that if I changed even a single second of that girl's journey, that somehow the outcome of my present life would be altered.  You know, kind of like the 'butterfly effect'?  Would I be sitting at this exact place, at this  exact moment?  Would my fingers be hitting the keyboard writing out this very post?  Exactly, I do not know, and neither do you.

Now, if I had a chance to chat with that girl, well, that would be an entirely different story.  If I were given a chance I'd pick up the telephone and give her a ring.  I'd tell her to take more chances, risk it all, fall in love, fall out of love, and never, ever stop dreaming.  I would tell her to fall for the bad boy, love him like crazy, embrace the heartache, dust off her skirt, and just keep on looking forward.  Because the end game will be worth the wait and the juice  will definitely be worth the squeeze.

xoxo