Catharsis.

“We are all going, I thought, and it applies to turtles and turtlenecks, Alaska the girl and Alaska the place, because nothing can last, not even the earth itself. The Buddha said that suffering was caused by desire, we'd learned, and that the cessation of desire meant the cessation of suffering. When you stopped wishing things wouldn't fall apart, you'd stop suffering when they did.”

John Green

John Green has stolen my heart.  His words comfort me in ways I could never fully describe.  These last few days have been an eye opener.  Life is so very fragile.  Fragile and magnificent.  Love, forgive, and then love some more.  In an instant your life could drastically change.  Make sure that you love with all of your heart, all of your being, all that you can and maybe some more.  Our time here on Earth is only made worthy if we love.  

I will no longer be a grudge holder (it just isn't worth it).  At this very second I am letting go of all the hurt I've held inside.  Losing someone makes you realize the important things in life.  You come to understand that there are certain aspects of life that are just not worth dwelling over.  People make mistakes, what can ya do?

For the last three days I have had the same dream, over, and over, and over again.  At first I couldn't understand what it meant.  Now, I think I do.  Not everything in life will have closure.  Some things just end with no rhyme nor reason about them.  Not a thing could have been done differently.  In every scenario you'd have the same ending.  In every instance you'd end up with the same result.  It wasn't anything you did.  It wasn't anything you failed to do.  Some occurrences in life just are. You just need to learn to recognize those instances and let them go.  And, I am letting go.  I am letting go.

xoxo