A Beautiful Mess.

"Life is like a beautiful melody, only the lyrics are messed up." 

Hans Christian Andersen

Above you will find the very face I made when I realized the last time I made an appearance around these parts was on the ninth of July.  Absolutely shameful, no doubt. However, in my defense, the last thirteen days have been a mess.  Though a good mess, it was still a mess.  My sweet paternal grandmother and her sister were here and I made the best to savor the last few days with them.  I even took on my father's insane idea to go on a Disney day trip.  Yes, I went to Disney for a day, more on that later.

I am a born worrier.  For some reason I worry about everything.  Did I do this, did I do that, was this good enough, was that good enough.  It is quite exhausting.  I hate clutter, I hate messes, I hate chaos.  Thus, I am constantly at war with making an attempt to control everything around me and just letting it go.  Which, if we are being honest, is a battle lost before it is even fought.  It is the one lesson you learn fairly quickly in life.  You have control over little if anything in this world.  

Recently I was told by someone that whenever I start to worry about something I should ask myself, "Would this matter in the grand scheme of things?"  I have been doing just that.  And, it rarely ever does matter.  There has yet to be something that would cause a great catastrophe to our precious universe.  The messy house?  Not important.  The laundry still isn't put away?  Not important.  The dog's toys are all over the living room?  Not important.  I didn't make the bed today?  Not important.  The cushions on the couch are not in their proper place?  Not important.  There are napkins left over on the kitchen table?  IT IS NOT IMPORTANT. 

Life is messy.  Those messes are just a sign that you are living.  Those messes are a sign that you are doing something right.  Accept the inevitable.  You will make mistakes.  You may or may not learn from those mistakes, and, that is okay.  You may go thirteen days without blogging and that is okay as well.  It is all okay, because in the grand scheme of things, it does not matter, it never has, it never will.

If you've missed me, I am back!  If you didn't, well, boo you!

xoxo